Gardasil Changed
Our Dreams To Nightmares
…And…
Gardasil: The Journey No
One Should Take…
Ed’s notes: I am
not an anti-vaccine advocate, but the preponderance of evidence around the
globe should indicate to any rational, thinking person that the HPV vaccines
are being pushed like breakfast cereals and popular soft drinks and that
inadequate testing and public disclosure has led to and continues to lead to
deaths and horrible medical consequences.
The question remains: “Who should take this vaccine and
who should not?”; if anyone at all.
It needs to be sent back into retesting and public needs
to be aware of ALL of those results…no selective transparency.
It is obvious that young women and men with certain
preexisting conditions, including but not limited to Diabetes, are at peril and those warnings do not exist.
The vaccine has
been withdrawn in some countries and a growing number of American doctors
will not administer the vaccine. That ought to tell anyone with an ounce of
common sense that there is a real problem.
Read these two entries and ask yourself this question if you have a daughter : “How would you feel if your daughter’s life was destroyed by this
vaccine just because you believe it can’t happen to her”. And do we have any idea of the possible
long range consequences in say 10, 20 or 30 years from now?
Six
years have passed since Alexis received three shots of Gardasil. Six years of
suffering for no good reason. Now, I live in constant fear of what might
happen during my daughter’s next seizure.
I wake
up around 5am every morning in a panic. My heart is racing and I desperately
try to stop my mind from thinking the worst, never knowing what to expect.
Some nights she knocks on my door every hour because she is having so many
seizures that she is totally confused.
Some
days when she gets undressed for her bath she has dark bruises, with no
knowledge of how they got there. Sometimes she has knots on her head and
doesn’t remember hitting her head. If she doesn’t have her mouth piece in
while having a seizure, then blood pours out of her mouth because of grinding
her teeth and they get chipped and loose. Every morning I awake in fear,
wondering if Alexis is still with us.
Alexis
and her younger sister used to be so close, I asked Kimber to write down her
feelings about what has happened to her sister. This is what she wrote:
“Being nine or ten years old and watching your
older sister slowly dissolve and someone completely different taking
her place is simply wrong. It is pretty much the exact same thing as
watching a hit man kill her before your eyes. It is – just knowing the fact
that you will never see your sister again. The only difference is, through my
experience, it was slower, I didn’t understand what was happening, and I
didn’t know I was never going to see the real her, or should I say old
her, ever again.
Where is my best friend?
Today, six years later, I am used to it; her
seizures, her way of life, just everything about her. It’s like I never knew
her, like I’ve only heard about her. All I remember about her was a little
bit of her personality. She was my only sister, my only sibling, my best
friend. My sister lost all her friends. I held onto mine, but they never
fully understood what I’ve been going through. So my friends do not come
around here. I am actually embarrassed to have them come over because of how
my sister acts.
You never know what will happen and so many
people just do not understand.
I miss her dearly. Whenever I see a couple
sisters hugging or just hangin’ like a couple regular siblings, I get sad and
think of all this. It’s not like I can’t hang out with my sister, it’s just
not the same. She is what my mom calls, “a toddler, a little old lady, and a
teenager combined.”
If my
sister was “destined” to be injured, then I would have rather it had been not
mental, but maybe a bad scar or a small part of one of her limbs amputated.
Just something – anything besides what she has now. Now she is a shell of the
sister I once had.”
Alexis
heard me asking her sister to “write a story” so Alexis decided to write a
story for me. This is her version:
“Once upon a time there was a girl named Alexis
Raley Wolf. She has been sick for 6 years, way too long, right?! Also she has
not slept, function, behaved in 6 flippin years. Way too long right my
wonderful peeps. So what the hell are we going to do, huh? I hope there is a
flipping cure really, really soon, you know what I mean??? Also I love that
it isn’t so bad as 6 years ago, you know my wonderful peeps that I love so
ever much….the end, Love Alexis Raley Wolf.
Dear
Lord of my life, please, please, please, please, please, please make me
better. I beg of you. That is all I really flipping want SO PLEASE for the
love of God! Love Alexis.”
Along
with her “story” she also drew a circle with “Gardasil” in the center and a
bunch of lines through it. I have a large sack full of letters/stories that
Alexis has written down on paper just like this over the years. They are
always the same.
Our life before Gardasil:
Allow
me take you back to 2007, when I was pressured into making the decision that
changed our lives forever.
In 2007
Alexis was a very shy 7th grader. She worked so hard at school that she
achieved honor roll status. She had been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes
the year before, but took the diagnosis very well, choosing to use it as an
opportunity help educate her classmates. She did many school projects on
diabetes which not only helped her learn more, but also showed her classmates
what it was like to live with diabetes. We were all so proud of her.
Alexis
in Germany
Her
grandfather wanted to reward her hard work by having her come spend 4 weeks
with him in Germany during that summer off from school. I was a little apprehensive
but she was in control of her health and knew how to give herself the
appropriate amount of insulin when needed.
We
visited her Endocrinologist and she gave us the “thumbs up” to go on the
trip. Next we saw her pediatrician to get her “thumbs up.” During that visit,
they recommended the Gardasil series. They said due to Alexis having diabetes
it was very, very important to get her vaccinated for EVERYTHING that came up
because of her weakened immune system. I agreed.
I
wanted to protect my daughter, doesn’t everyone? She was given the first shot
and we were told to come back after Alexis returned from Germany.
Alexis
had a great time in Germany and returned home 4 weeks later. When she
returned I started noticing strange things about her behaviour. She never
experienced “jet lag” and actually slept very little. When she found out our
dog had passed away while she was gone she tried very hard to cry. She had
never had to TRY to cry before….usually she could cry very easily. We went
back to the Dr and she got the 2nd shot in the series. That is when things
really started to get crazy.
Alexis’
personality changed so much. At first, I thought she was just coming out of
her “shy shell” since she had just travelled to Germany.
Gardasil begins to take control:
The day
after her 2nd shot, her heart started pounding so hard and fast we thought it
was going to jump out of her chest.
We went
back to the doctor and they sent us to a cardiologist. Alexis had to wear a
heart monitor for 24 hrs. Her heart rate was fast but they didn’t think it
was an issue.
Then
Alexis started throwing up A LOT and for no reason. Then she would say that
things looked scary and sounded scary. Back to the doctor we went. The
gastroenterologist told me to give her Zantak and come back in a month.
Where
did my life go?
She
started 8th grade but was unable to sit still and always felt like throwing
up. The teachers started putting a trash can near her desk. Teachers
were calling me and telling me that she was disturbing the whole class and I
needed to do more. I was taking her to doctor’s appointments all the time it
seemed and no one could figure out what was going on.
Alexis
started seeing and hearing things that were not there. She would get very
mean and violent with me. Yelling at me and telling me that she wanted a new
family. She screamed at me to take her to an orphanage so someone would adopt
her and take her away. I was so scared. Heart-broken does not begin to
describe what I felt.
I got
zero help from her father (my husband). He would only yell at me and tell me
what to tell the doctors. I felt like I was losing my mind.
About
that time, Alexis started running out of the house and knocking door to door
telling everyone that she hated her family and wanted a new one. Obviously
people called the police and we had to explain all of this to them when it
didn’t even make sense to me.
The
holidays came and went…it was the worst Halloween and Christmas ever.
A third Injection of Gardasil – the final straw
for Alexis:
Then in
January of 2008, I took Alexis back to the doctor and she got the 3rd shot in
the series. I asked if Gardasil could have anything to do with all her crazy
symptoms. I was told “No, but if she didn’t finish the series then it could
cause more problems.” So Alexis got the 3rd shot.
For the
first time in her’ life Alexis was telling me she hated me and didn’t want to
be part of my family. It hurt so bad, it seemed I was crying all the time. I
would cry and she would just look at me with such hate and then as if a
switch was flipped on she would look at me and say “don’t cry mommy.”
The
vomiting and hallucinations kept getting worse. We had seen so many doctors
at this point I was finding it hard to keep up. No one ever gave us any
answers.
Within
2 weeks of the 3rd shot Alexis was hospitalized. The doctor was concerned
about her diabetes and weight loss. They ran tests and told me “There is
nothing medically wrong with your daughter.” I told them they were wrong.
Since
they thought Alexis was just acting out and being a teenager they sent her to
a children’s behavioural hospital. What a horrible place! They treated Alexis
like an animal. I visited every day. She was there for 5 days, and on the 4th
day they called me to tell me that she was eating her vomit out of the bucket
they gave her to throw up in!!!!!
The
next morning they called and told me that she was stable and I needed to come
get her. She was far from stable! That day I called and begged her doctor to
help – to do something! She was able to get her into another children’s
hospital.
When we
arrived, the staff told us, “I can see that her issues are not behavioural
but we will try to get her to sleep over the weekend.” They gave her high
amounts of Trazadone to help her sleep and it never worked.
The
following Monday when the doctor came in, I told her everything that was
going on. She said it sounded like Alexis was having seizures!!!
Test,
after test, after test.
She
ordered an EEG done and there it was!!!! Alexis was having tons of seizures
in the frontal lobe of her brain. The next 6 months consisted of tests,
tests, and more tests. Alexis remained in the hospital from March to July.
All tests done (over and over) came back normal except for the EEG’s.
Finally,
after her 2nd spinal tap, they determined that Alexis ‘must have been exposed
to a virus’ that had caused encephalitis, TBI (traumatic brain injury), brain
damage and a seizure disorder.
She underwent IV therapy, Plasmapheresis,
surgery for a port to be put in her chest for the plasmapheresis, and then
surgery for the port to be removed. She spent her 15th birthday hooked to a
machine.
There
were times when I went to visit my daughter and she was strapped to the bed
because of something she had done to a nurse or sitter. Alexis had to have
someone with her at all times. She would try to take and eat food from trash
cans.
She would scream foul language, try to punch
or kick people, spit on people, flash people, throw things…….my sweet, shy
child had become someone I didn’t recognize. Do you have any idea how hard it
is to visit your child in the hospital, go to their room and find them 4
point restrained to their bed???
She
begged to come home and then would beg the nurse to take her home. She would
tell me that I wasn’t her mother anymore because she found a better mom
(usually a janitor or a sitter or someone who didn’t know how to respond to
her).
When
UNM Hospital didn’t know what else to do with her they made arrangements for
Alexis to go to Austin Texas to their neuro rehab. She was only able to stay
for 2 months because our insurance would not pay anymore.
I was
told to contact Social Security and medicaid. I was told to get her signed up
on this waiver and that waiver and things I had never even heard of
before…..what did all of that mean?
Here we are 6 years later, what happened to my
child????
Alexis
will be turning 20 in June of 2013. Mentally she is at a 3rd grade level. She
cannot be left alone because of her violent seizures. She has been on
anti-seizure meds this whole time, many different kinds and nothing seems to
work.
In 2010
she got a VNS implant in her chest. It is a device similar to a pacemaker. It
is implanted under the skin in the chest area between her right breast and
her shoulder and a lead is attached to her vagus nerve and sends off
continuous impulses in hopes of stopping the seizures. It really doesn’t seem
to work either. She gets it adjusted (strength of impulses) every month but
have yet to see any big changes in seizure activity.
This is
what Alexis thinks of Gardasil.
Alexis
has to wear adult diapers because she cannot always control her bladder or
bowels when she has a seizure. She has upwards of a hundred or more seizures
a day, some very big and violent; some where she is stuck in a long stare with
lots of facial twitching. She has lost one tooth due to a violent seizure and
now has to wear a mouth guard at all times.
Several
other teeth are chipped because of seizures. We have to keep all food locked
up at all times. If things were not locked up especially at night she could
eat herself into a diabetic coma. When a seizure has finished she thinks that
she is starving, even if she had just finished eating a meal. All of her
friends left her far behind. No one wants a friend that has seizures, throws
up and has to wear diapers….at least not any of the friends she used to have.
Alexis
had big plans of going to college and becoming a special needs elementary
school teacher. Sadly that will never happen.
She and
I had to go before a judge in court to grant me guardianship since she is now
over 18 and cannot make any adult decisions for herself.
Here are some other things that Alexis will never
get to do, thanks to Gardasil:
§ graduate from high school with
her class
§ get married and have a family
of her own
§ get her driver’s license
§ go to prom or homecoming
§ go on a real date
§ have a job
§ take a shower without someone
else being in the room
§ hang out at the mall with
friends
§ move out and get her own place
§ wear normal panties……and the
list goes on and on…
§
Gardasil
changed everything! Our perfectly normal lives have been forever transformed
into a living nightmare.
Please, learn from our story. Do not let your
child become “One More Girl” like Alexis because of Gardasil.
 
I write this story hoping it
helps save at least one girl; then our journey will not have been in vain.
I will barely touch the tip of the iceberg; so much has happened over
these past 4-5 years. It has been a whirlwind and like a whirlwind – an
unwelcome event.
Stephanie was 23 years old at the time of her 1st Gardasil injection. As most young
adults, she was working, had her own health insurance and took responsibility
for her health and medical decisions. She had been a Type I diabetic since
age 10 and knew the importance of taking care of herself.
At her regular check up, the doctor said she needed to get this “NEW”
vaccine for humanpapilloma virus (HPV). So our journey began.
Steph received her first shot in June 2008; the second in October
2008. The night of her second vaccine, Stephanie was admitted to the
intensive care unit with an acute respiratory problem and sky rocketing blood
sugars.
The 3rd injection
was in December 2008. Early in 2009, Stephanie took a trip to Mexico.
On the way back she experienced uncontrollable vomiting, headaches and body
aches. Once again she was hospitalized.
Thinking she may have picked up something while in Mexico, we pressed
the hospital and doctors to check for parasites and pathogens. All tests came
back negative.
She was hospitalized over and over again with the same symptoms. Test
after test revealed nothing. Finally she received a diagnosis of gastro
paresis, thought to be a result of her diabetes. Her body was also full
of yeast. One gastric empting test came back inconclusive, another came back
slow.
Here is the clincher; we did not give any thought to the vaccine
because we did not know she had the vaccine. It was not until we started
realizing that her symptoms were not exclusive to gastro paresis, that I
pressed Stephanie asking what she may have done differently or been exposed
to.
This is when she said, “Well, I had a vaccine.” Keep in mind she was
an adult who trusted the doctors. She did not think this was relevant – they
would not give her something to hurt her.
It would be close to 2 years before realizing what could have caused
Steph’s “mystery illness.”
While on my Facebook page, a large flashing ad on the left of my
screen shouting ‘One more girl’ got my attention.
I clicked on it and found that several girls had the same symptoms. I
had so many questions! How was this vaccine tested? What did the package
insert say? Did any other of these girls have compromised immune systems like
Steph with her type I diabetes? Was it tested on this group of girls? Why do
some get sick but not all? Why so many?
Why Had Other Countries Already
Taken The Vaccine Off The Market? We Felt Like We Had Played Russian Roulette
And Lost.
This was just the beginning of the long, long journey into our
Gardasil nightmare. Since this time, Stephanie has been hospitalized over 80
times. She was in for 3 weeks in southern California. This time on a purely
liquid diet, hooked up to IVs, gaining weight and still vomiting.
She had headaches, a disrupted menstrual cycle, large weight gain,
itching, hair loss, body aches, depression, and extreme mood changes. She has
had EVERY test in the book – over and over again.
Not one doctor that we encountered has yet to look at, or even
consider the vaccine as a possible cause. They have blamed everything from
diabetes to being psychologically sick. Some doctors have gone so far as to
say they think we are crazy.
Her last doctor in southern California finally looked at some other
girls’ stories and the website SaneVax. He threw his hands up and said, “If
this were my mother, daughter, sister or aunt, I would go and get a second
opinion.”
Keep in mind by this time; Steph has had every blood test, scope, scan
and lab test available. All pretty much inconclusive or if it came back
positive once, it was not positive again. They pumped her full of anti-nausea
meds, antibiotics, fluids, painkillers, and anti-fungal over and over again.
Each and every hospital visit we would have to go over the same thing. Each
and every time we would get the same treatment.
We were always told by the hospitals, “We don’t fix people here; we
just get them well enough to follow up with their primary physician.” I could
not get them to understand that she is hospitalized so much that by the time
she gets out and gets an appointment with her primary doc, she is sick again
and admitted to the hospital. We have had 2nd 3rd and 4th opinions.
These symptoms are brutal. The vomiting is not something that stops on
its own and is accompanied by brutal stomachaches as well. Now you tell me,
how does a person who is vomiting more days out of their life than not gain
weight?
It is almost like she has gone into menopause with the hair loss, mood
swings, night sweats, and hot flashes. This vaccine disrupts the entire
neurological and endocrine system.
Stephanie’s Cobra insurance ran out, so she is now uninsured and
unable to work, with hospital bills over 2 million dollars. I decided
to move her to Northern California so she would be closer and maybe get fresh
start with new doctors. She had already been hospitalized numerous times in
Southern California in 5 different hospitals.
The move north proved to us that the medical field is not willing to
take responsibility or go against “Big Pharmaceutical” companies.
To date, Steph spent most of April 2013 in the hospital. We went so
far as to have her gall bladder removed hoping this would stop her
uncontrollable vomiting. Wrong again. The doctor actually told us, “So what
if it is the vaccine, what are we going to do about it?”
Today, Steph is 27 and on disability and Medicare. Still, not one
doctor is willing to look further into the possibility the vaccine may have
caused her symptoms.
Her visits to the hospital are coming farther apart. There is a series
of things that happen before she gets sick. She becomes extremely tired, will
“swell up,” get extremely bad migraines and body aches, then the vomiting
will start. She will vomit with no food in her system, multiple times a
day – for days. This seems to occur about every 3 months.
Stephanie is not alone, there have been over 130 deaths and 29,000
adverse reactions reported. Keep in mind; these are only reported reactions.
How many other families have sick adult daughters that have not put two and
two together?
Why in the world would anyone want 12 year olds to get this vaccine
without having to tell their parents? A 12 year old that became sick from
this vaccine without parental knowledge would never be able to connect the
two! And their horrible journey into Gardasil prison could begin just that
easily.
I just hope that all of our girl’s stories help to get the word out
that this vaccine is a killer! One way or another it destroys lives.
Please understand – all 3 of my children had their childhood vaccines.
I was not anti- vaccine until this. We feel the medical community has
abandoned us.
HPV Vaccines Were “Fast Tracked” To The Main Stream Medical Community
Without Sufficient Testing To Deem Them Safe For Anyone.
Please do not even consider this vaccine, it has damaged and killed
more girls throughout the U.S. and other countries than the disease it was
meant to protect against!
If you take one thing away from my daughter’s story, it should be
clear as a bell – DO NOT AGREE TO PLAY GARDASIL ROULETTE!
By LESLIE MANOOKIAN
The health column “Why worry about HPV?” (May 3,
2013) widely missed the mark. The article lacked scientific rigor while adding
to Merck’s fear-mongering advertising campaign that girls “Be One Less.”
Indeed, Merck’s human papillomavirus (HPV) vaccine Gardasil received an
advertising award for creating a “market out of thin air.”
HPV is a virus that infects most within a few years of becoming
sexually active. Importantly, 90 percent of women infected with HPV will clear
the virus on their own within two years of infection. Of the 10 percent that
don’t clear the infection, it takes another three years for 5 percent to
progress to pre-cancerous lesions and a further five years for those to
progress to invasive cancer. Cervical cancer development is a lengthy process
with ample time and safe treatment when necessary.
Annual Pap smears have been routine for most women for decades.
Pap smears have reduced cervical cancer in the developed world by 70 percent in
the past few decades to such an extent that there are as many pedestrian deaths
in the U.S. annually as there are cervical cancer deaths, with half of those
occurring in women who have never had a Pap smear.
The Association of American Physicians and
Surgeons has stated that “this HPV vaccine costs hundreds of dollars for
something that most of the recipients do not even need protection against.”
Equally important, Pap smears carry zero risk to the recipient.
While Coe
Smith writes that HPV vaccine “is very well-tolerated,” there have been over
23,000 adverse reactions reported to the Vaccine Adverse Events Reporting
System, including 10,000 emergency-room visits and 85 deaths in the U.S. after HPV vaccines.
These
numbers likely understate true adverse reactions, as only a
fraction of adverse reactions to all medications are reported, in some cases as
few as 1 percent. While the CDC claims that all these reactions are a
coincidence, one has to wonder what
exactly caused 10,000 emergency-room visits and 85 deaths in otherwise healthy
young women.
This point is driven home by the fact that HPV vaccine fragments
have been found in the brains of two young women who died months after HPV
vaccination with inflammatory symptoms indicative of a fatal autoimmune
response. Serious adverse reactions related to HPV vaccination include death,
convulsions, paralysis, Guillain–Barré syndrome, transverse myelitis, facial
palsy, chronic fatigue syndrome, autoimmune disorders, deep vein thrombosis,
pulmonary embolisms and cervical cancers.
Amazingly, federal law assures vaccine makers bear zero liability
when their vaccines cause harm. Merck used an aluminum-containing placebo in
its clinical trials, thereby masking the true side-effect profile. Aluminum on
its own is known to cause neurological and inflammatory reactions, so it is no
surprise that the vaccine and placebo shared the same side effects.
Interestingly, in Merck’s clinical trials the
number of girls between ages 9 and 26 who reported serious adverse reactions to
Gardasil indicative of an autoimmune disorder during pre-licensure trials was
245, compared with 218 girls in the “control” group. According to the authors
of one study, “at best, Gardasil was shown to be as safe as its potentially
neuro-immunotoxic constituent aluminum.”
HPV vaccines are recommended for girls (and boys) 9 to 26, despite
being studied on fewer than 1,200 girls under age 16. HPV-vaccine-induced
“immunity” is not permanent and wanes within five years, meaning children will
have been exposed to adverse effects from the vaccine with zero benefit before
becoming sexually active.
Cervical cancer is a rare disease in the developed world with
mortality rates several times lower than reported serious adverse reactions to
the vaccines. It is no wonder most parents have rejected HPV vaccinations.
Leslie Manookian is one of the creators of the
documentary film “The Greater Good.” She lives in Ketchum.
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